Restless

I have a bad habit of staying up late when Josh is away.

Anyway, I've been in the suburbs a lot lately, not sure why, but anyway. I just keep thinking, all of that is nice. The house big enough for all the kids, the yard for them to play in, the convenience to the city, the schools, the shopping ... but really, it's not what I want. I'm not sure what I want, but it's not that. Maybe I want to live in the city? Maybe I want more country? I can't really put my finger on it. Maybe the answer is that I'm just perpetually restless. I probably always will be, I think it's just in my nature.